This is my first posting. So Let me start off by explaining about my situation.
I am 27 years old, as well as my wife. We’ve been married for about 6 years (yes, we did get married young.) and throughout our entire marriage I’ve been plagued with a deep desire to be her cuckold. Before I was married, I was big into the Bushido honor code, and I lived my life by it. I still try to nowadays, but I can’t get the cuckold thing out of my head.
I know that I want to be a cuckold. That is a definite. But anyways, She’s known of my wanting to be that way for the longest time. And I think that she was considering it, until I screwed up one day, by getting a little perturbed about some numbers I saw in her cell phone. I asked her about them, and they turned out to be family members, however she was quite taken aback by the fact that I showed jealousy. So I’ve been re-working on her ever since.
Like I said, she knows of my wanting to be her cuck, but every time we talk about it, I always get “I’m better than that”, and “I’m afraid that you might want to start sleeping with others too” (which I more than adamantly explained to her was not the case), and things to those effects.
She is perfectly okay with quasi humiliating me in bed, except not all the time. And she does have a dominant side to her, because she’ll go to the bar with her friends or family and have guys buying her drinks in order to sit with her and stuff like that. She’s even said that black men know how to dance better than white men, and she thinks that black men dance sexy as hell “so they must be good fucks” (her words exactly).
Her one sister is married to a black fella, and her other sister has a Bull of sorts. I’ve asked her, and my wife has told me that her youngest sister (the one with the bull) told her that it was the best sex she’s ever had. She is also perfectly okay with getting a large size strap-on/dildo for us to play with her with.
The thing that she’s caught up on, are the wedding vows. She doesn’t want to be a cheater, and to make things worse, we had a daughter recently. How can I get her to put that to the side? so many questions…..
I’m losing my sexual stamina. I can’t really be on top anymore because of what I do, I use my arms and shoulders alot, so during sex they tend to start to spasm. I’m only 4.5 inches hard, and whenever I’m on top, I can’t get her off. I only want this for her because I think that she deserves better.
So my question is: Can anyone help? I’ve done the talking, I’ve saved websites, videos (internet only at this point), etc for her, so she’s been through all that. Is there anyone here who can give me some good solid advice?