After BBC

My name is Alex, I’m 32 years old. My wife Kate and I have been together for seven years. Recently, our lives changed. We decided to try something we’d only whispered about jokingly before. It was our first experience with interracial cuckolding. I’m still not sure how to describe my feelings, but I’ll try.

The idea arose from her fantasies. My wife is open, passionate, always looking for something new. One night, she confessed that she was attracted to the idea of meeting someone new. At first, I laughed thinking it was a joke after a bottle of wine. But her eyes lit up.

We discussed it for months, weighed the possibilities, argued. In the end, curiosity and trust won out. We found a black man through an app. He was charismatic and confident. Everything was discussed beforehand: our boundaries, rules, and safety.

The evening passed in a blur. I watched my wife dissolve into the moment, and I felt a mixture of excitement, jealousy, and a strange calm. It wasn’t just physical, it seemed to open a new side of us. When Kate and I were alone, she asked: «Are you okay?» I nodded, but everything inside was seething.

A month has passed. Life has changed, but not in the way I feared. We’ve become closer. My wife says she feels freer, and I seem to understand her better. We discuss our desires more often, even the strangest ones. All of this has brought us closer.

But sometimes I catch myself wondering if we’ve gone too far. Jealousy flares up, but I’m learning to cope with it. We agreed it was a one-time experience, but my wife sometimes hints that she wouldn’t mind repeating it.

Our friends don’t know anything. Sometimes I look at her and wonder how far we’re willing to go. The main thing is that we’re still together, and I believe this won’t destroy us. I’m curious how other couples cope with doubts and fears after their first BBC experience. Surely everyone experiences similar feelings.