My wife of 3 years is cheating on me with multiple black men. I didnt think anything of her “4 hour grocery shopping trips” or phone calls at nite and suddenly leaving because one of her friends is having a “crisis”. Just recently she got a text saying a friend of hers “got into a car accident” and she’s going to help her. She then got in the shower which i thought was strange. She got another text when she was in the shower. I looked at her cell and it was unlocked. I read the text. It was from “Dominos Pizza” but it looks like a booty call. Apparently she was fucking around yesterday too. She was supposed to be with her cousin going clothes shopping for her new baby.
I went through the pictures and saw videos and pics of her fucking black guys. I felt like I got punched in the gut. I emailed some of the pics and vids to myself and put the cell back. After she left I went through the pics and vids again. I don’t know what came over me but I started jerking off to them. I must have jerked off at least 3 times.
I then started looking up cheating wives with black guys. I came to this site. Help me understand. I love her and hate her at the same time. I cant stand the thought that shes fucking someone else right now but yet Im turned on by it.